Who am I?

These two definitions clearly describe my current feelings about my current situation. It has affected my attitude and my thoughts.

My bitterness has caused me to become jealous, to be a complainer, and induced self misery. I am truly not happy about what is going on and it is eating me up.

I need to not be bitter. It's taking the joy out of day to day things. It's distracting my mind, it's affecting my attitude at work. I am not at peace.

Some of the things I need to get over this bitterness are some of the fruits of the spirit:

I was playing racquetball the other day and realized that I kept rushing the to meet the ball after the serve. Every time I did that I'd come up short against the wall or it would hit the tip of my racquet. My partner told me I need to take my time and focus on where the ball is going to be. Let it go so that way it comes back to you to make a return or kill shot, he said. After I started listening and following what my partner told me I finally won a game, the 6th out of 6 games.

So my options are: wait for a response from my boss for a the assignment I requested (which could be next year), go up to my boss' boss and let them know how I feel respectfully, or brush the whole thing off and just wait my turn next year.

Overall, I don't want to be bitter about this. Or anything. I want to live my life to the fullest for God with no regrets.