Who am I?

Worry, worry, worry... That's what college students do.

Our bible study lesson talked about worrying and how we shouldn't worry. Right after I got into my car, God gave me a chance to exercise what I learned.

I get into my car to drive home to work on the last 7 pages of my paper due at 7am the next day, when I reach into my right pocket for my cell phone. Hm. Not there. I reach for my left pocket. Hm. Not there either. I look into my backpack and other possible places that I could have dropped it in my car. Not there either.

I start to panic a lil bit. I mean, I've only lost my life. My cell phone has my daily planner on it that I sync from my computer. It also has all my contacts (which I back up on my comp on a regular basis) and has some G-14 classified information. So in actuality, if I indeed lost my cell phone, I had everything backed up and could easily transfer my stuff to a new cell phone.

So, I was stuck with 2 choices: Go retrace my steps and search for my cell phone or go home and finish my paper.

I prayed about it as I was leaving the church parking lot. I prayed for peace of mind as I make my decision.

I went rushed back to school. Sped and almost got into a couple accidents. All for a cell phone that contained my life.

I figured I left it in the University Student Union at Fresno State when I rushed out of there in the early evening just before bible study. I went in to the places I was at and searched for it. No cell phone. I find my friend Q and asked if I could use his phone to call myself. It turns out that someone already picked it up and said that he was going to turn it in to the police the next morning. We met at the USU and I thanked him for bring it back to me and offered to give him a monetary cash reward. He refused and I thanked him again. There are still some decent people left in this world.

I already came to the conclusion that I don't need to worry about retrieving my cell phone because everything was backed up already. Plus there is the possibility of picking it up tomorrow at school. However, I was so caught up with the necessity of having it in my hands that I was willing to risk my life for it. I believed I needed it more than I needed to finish my paper. I just couldn't let go.

In the end it all worked out. I'm safe and my cell phone is safely charging and set for 5am to remind me to get ready for clinical at the hospital tomorrow. However, I did kinda risk my life for my phone. I feel pathetic. I justify risking my life for my cell phone because I couldn't let go of the fact that I wouldn't be able to complete my tasks or make contacts with people I need to for the next day. Cell phones are easily dispensable. I'm not.

I've learned my lesson. I hope I don't have to go through an experience like that again. Worrying is not the healthiest thing in the world. And it can make you do stupid things. Just don't worry. Just don't do it.

Side note: I heard eating an apple instead of that cup of coffee is a better way to keep yourself up. I'm going to try it out as I finish my paper tonight.