Who am I?

Ugh.

Going out to the field and coming back to civilization really messed up my sleep schedule again this past week. I felt that I got more REM sleep out in the field than I currently do now. The last 2 nights I've been waking up every 2 hours or so feeling restless. Then around 5 or 6am I roll over restlessly trying to go back to sleep, but fail.

A couple of things I've been thinking about:
Home -
My Dad called me up about 2 weeks ago and offered to pay for my trip home for thanksgiving. Totally out of the blue! My parents didn't offer to pay for Christmas, so I guess something is really special this year. My plan was to stay in San Antonio for Thanksgiving with my friends, but that is not the case now. I really wanted to stay here during that 4-day weekend, but who can pass up a free flight home across country? As field training ended progressed to the end of last week I found myself thinking about home more often. I wasn't thinking about it at first, but now that I have a passage and reason for going home, it feels more meaningful to go home. Even talking with my classmates about our Thanksgiving plans got me even more excited to go home. Even though I know the "real" reason my parents want me home...

Ft. Bragg, NC -
There are many people that are heading to Bragg that I've become friends with here at OBLC. I'm glad that I've found some cool people to hang with and to do things with once we get some free time from work. Some concerns I have are about getting settled: housing, furniture, and location of apt/quarters. Most of these will be taken care of at Bragg, but I want to get ahead of the game.

"Taken" people -
-- I started typing this section and decided not to put my full thoughts about this subject. However, I will say that it's important to protect myself and be mindful about what's in my surroundings. --

The ethical stuff has been more of a concern to me than everything else. I'm glad my conscience is working and working well here. I feel somewhat vulnerable from my base where I know the area and the people.

One quote that has been helping me out was one that my great former choral director and now retired choral director, Robert Bullwinkel, told our group whenever we go out on choral trips around America and overseas: "When in doubt, don't." True. Very true.