I am: pissed off
Posted by Jeku | Posted in pissed off , unfair , work | Posted on 3/10/2010 12:16:00 AM
Maybe it's because I haven't slept well lately. Maybe it's because my schedule keeps flipping me from nights to days to nights to days then nights. Maybe it's because I haven't been working out regularly because my sleep cycle is off. Maybe it's because I'm not getting what I want. Or maybe because someone I know has what I want and I can't get it. It could be one or more of these things, but I'm really pissed off.
At work I do my job, taking care of patients, but also volunteer to do other things around the hospital. I teach, I work odd tasks on my days off, I work on research projects; I put in my time and then some, but I feel like I'm getting shafted. Sure the hospital gets a lot of the benefit, but I'm doing all of this to reach my goal, that dream assignment.
I find out a fellow co-worker and friend has reached my goal. I am happy for him. However, I'm his senior in terms of length of servitude at the hospital, yet he has obtained my dream assignment before me. My boss tells me that several factors come to play when giving out slots for this dream assignment that I long for: length of servitude, seniority. and experience. I surpass my junior in all three of these areas. Yet he gets the assignment that I've told my boss about for many months.
I am not mad at my friend. I'm mad at my boss in making giving my friend this assignment. It doesn't seem fair. I have done more of my fair share for my unit and to the hospital itself. I have stayed long hours, volunteered to do extra duties after my 12 hour night shift, and still feel like I'm getting the short stick.
I don't know if doing else extra is worth it if I can't reach my goal. I'll just put on the green suit, go to work, and go home. If going on and above is not recognized and rewarded, what's the point?
I need to just cool down before I do something or say something stupid. Or if I could just get some sleep...
Up in 3 hours for volunteer photoshoot at work...
hey kuya! just prayed for you, hope things turn up for you (:
Hey bro.
God is sovereign in your situation, and He definitely has a purpose behind what's goin down. Dont forget... we work hard as Christians, not necessarily because of what we can gain from our employers, but to give God glory in our workplace.
Get some rest and stay in the word. I'll be praying for you man. You've got a God who loves you, will provide for you, and knows whats best for you. Dont lose sight of Him!
~Grace and Peace