Who am I?

Work is killing my sleep schedule again. The flop from nights to days and next week to nights is not fun. So many things are happening right now. With me being half awake and needing caffeine every couple of hours I feel that I'm behind on what's going on. However, this morning is a good time for me to talk to God and sort out a plan what works for God. After all, I belong to Him.

So far God's telling me to: wait. Soooo not my personality. I like to get things done immediately and ASAP. When my tasks aren't, I get frustrated/angry, I worry. Does getting frustrated/angry and worrying get the job done quicker? NO.

I find when I'm frustrated/angry I don't make clear thoughtful decisions. They are rash and sometimes irrational. Worry doesn't expedite the solution, but it makes me feel that I'm doing something. I have to be doing something. It's who I am.

Doors have closed on me lately, but new doors have opened. At some doors I'm continually knocking until they open. I hope the noise gets through. The squeeky wheel gets the oil.

So until the door opens, I will wait Lord.